Ex fiance is hurting
It's easier for him to write his feelings rather than speak them, and he texted me a long message last night saying he loves me and hopes I will "have him in my heart" again one day, but he also won't hate me if I leave.
He said "I've come so far thanks to you" because he lived with his parents when we met, and I pushed him to get a job, get his own place, and start going back to school for Cybersecurity. Which he has done.
I care about him as a person, but I just am no longer in love with him. We were trapped in one room together with no breaks for 3 miserable years, and it just suffocated any romantic feelings I once had. Even now I get zero space or alone time- he and I live AND work together. I hate living in Texas too, so every single day is a nightmare for me.
A new friend of mine has offered me a free place to stay in Phoenix AZ, in a year when my current lease is up. I haven't given an answer yet, but my desperation to leave here has me leaning toward yes. If I go, I know it's going to devastate my ex fiance further. 😞 I hate hurting him but I also deserve to be fulfilled after I devoted the last 4 years of my life to an unhappy relationship.
I hate breakups. I hate hurting someone. But I'm not willing to swallow my misery any longer.
He said "I've come so far thanks to you" because he lived with his parents when we met, and I pushed him to get a job, get his own place, and start going back to school for Cybersecurity. Which he has done.
I care about him as a person, but I just am no longer in love with him. We were trapped in one room together with no breaks for 3 miserable years, and it just suffocated any romantic feelings I once had. Even now I get zero space or alone time- he and I live AND work together. I hate living in Texas too, so every single day is a nightmare for me.
A new friend of mine has offered me a free place to stay in Phoenix AZ, in a year when my current lease is up. I haven't given an answer yet, but my desperation to leave here has me leaning toward yes. If I go, I know it's going to devastate my ex fiance further. 😞 I hate hurting him but I also deserve to be fulfilled after I devoted the last 4 years of my life to an unhappy relationship.
I hate breakups. I hate hurting someone. But I'm not willing to swallow my misery any longer.