I Am Hurting

Right now I feel so torn. All of this stuff is happening around me and to me and it is all just pressing down on me. When there is so much stuff I need to do I just wallow in my self pity. I really just lie down and stare at the roof. At first all of the feelings are eating me a live but then they get so intense and I just go numb. I stop thinking and its as if I go on auto-pilot and when I come back I wonder where I was all that time. But no one else seems to notice I was even gone...