I Go Out of My Way to Avoid Painful Reminders

I visited the place I was when I really starting liking them a lot more than I should've. Where I made the mistake of letting go of my internal resistance towards those feelings I had for them for 1 1/2 years. Which was only a few months before they started dating someone else, so I was ecstatic and happy for that brief amount of time, and felt something I never felt before. It took one to moment completely shatter it. Such a stark contrast of how I felt then to now. I don't know; if I held onto that resistance to those feelings, even if it was denial and lies to myself, maybe I wouldn't have felt quite as bad.