I Am Frustrated

I feel like I've wasted so much time on him. Giving him many chances to "get it right". Put up with so much. Wasted years on him. Laid down some of my own morals. Defended him when others saw that he wasn't treating me better. He sought ME out. asked ME to be with him. We were together before I got sick, While I was sick, and after I got sick. ( Probably the real reason why I got sick in the first place.) We were together when the doctors said I was going to die. We were together when I missed my graduation. We were together in the mist of part of my recovery. Even though we parted ways as friends I thought he would at least be there for me despite everything that I went through. But obviously I still don't matter as much as I thought.