My dad really messed up my life by controlling my decisions!

when I hit rock bottom they were supportive but through the years I notice they wanted to be happy with the little I have even though I was trying to work so a girl like me and built a future. If I didn't believe in God I will have wrath towards my dad and family but I can't give into sin. I told him look even poor people have the privilege's to find love. He was from a very poor family. It seems like even in poverty and ignorance people know about love. And someone like me who is most aware or posses higher intelligence can't get a girl because of my poverty.