I Have Never Had A Love Like This
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She embraces me like the warmth of sunshine....gentle, soothing, healing after a cold, dark night.
I never want to leave her presence. I want to stay here, feel her, come to life.
Every time i feel i am withering, losing strength, discouraged, scared, her love remains and it grows more intense. It hits me at my core, it pulls me out from under, and it builds me up. I never ever thought it would stay after everything. I really didn't. I have never ever had a love like this. I want so much to be everything she needs. I want to make her as happy as she makes me. I want to be as solid for her as she is for me. Our situation has been so very difficult for multiple reasons along our path. I told her a while ago that difficult is just that...difficult....not impossible. Well, I have faltered along the way. I have freaked out, collapsed, cried, said I couldn't take it. I don't beat myself up because I am learning to have compassion for myself and I know that I'm not flawed and incapable of commitment. But, I have been so scared of her losing faith in me after all of the ups and downs. And, instead of her losing faith, she continues saying the same wonderful, loving, healing things to me. She says I am everything she has ever dreamed of. She says she believes in me. She says she will never leave me. And more than her words...she has shown me. It does make me sad that I have not always shown her the same solid, strong, steadfastness. I want to always be there for her. I want to show her what I am capable of.
She embraces me like the warmth of sunshine....gentle, soothing, healing after a cold, dark night.
I never want to leave her presence. I want to stay here, feel her, come to life.
Every time i feel i am withering, losing strength, discouraged, scared, her love remains and it grows more intense. It hits me at my core, it pulls me out from under, and it builds me up. I never ever thought it would stay after everything. I really didn't. I have never ever had a love like this. I want so much to be everything she needs. I want to make her as happy as she makes me. I want to be as solid for her as she is for me. Our situation has been so very difficult for multiple reasons along our path. I told her a while ago that difficult is just that...difficult....not impossible. Well, I have faltered along the way. I have freaked out, collapsed, cried, said I couldn't take it. I don't beat myself up because I am learning to have compassion for myself and I know that I'm not flawed and incapable of commitment. But, I have been so scared of her losing faith in me after all of the ups and downs. And, instead of her losing faith, she continues saying the same wonderful, loving, healing things to me. She says I am everything she has ever dreamed of. She says she believes in me. She says she will never leave me. And more than her words...she has shown me. It does make me sad that I have not always shown her the same solid, strong, steadfastness. I want to always be there for her. I want to show her what I am capable of.
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