I am not good at keeping my friends.

I had to leave most of my friends when I went to college, I still love them and see them as an important part of my life, but I don't miss them at all. I never text them or call, when we talk they are always the ones who start the conversation. There's this very close friend whom I almost got in a relationship with, we used to be very close, I've never been that close to any other girl. I promised her I'd try to change it about me, but even so really don't feel motivated to do it. I'm strange sometimes. The only person I really feel the need to call regularly is my mother.