Old friends?

So I’m visiting my grandma this week and today I saw an old friend that I haven’t seen in freakin’ years!! What like almost 10 or more years I’m guessing! He’s a bit older than me, im 18 and he’s gotta be at least 23..? I dunno but anyway, when we were younger he’d always come to my grandma’s house and ask if my sister and I can come outside to play, as kids do. then you know, time goes on, eventually every gets older and moves on and we hadn’t seen him since those days...he moved off to college in the next city and I moved across the country! but! I’m back now and I saw him today in his front yard and I think he was able to see me in the front seat of the car as we drive by (probably doesn’t remember me though) and he’s all handsome now and I looked like shit today😩😹 I was so embarrassed for myself. My grandma wanted me to go outside and bring in her garbage bins but the social anxiety freak in me faked throwing up just to avoid going out there and being seen cause he was still standing out there😹(and it worked! She told me to lay down) I’m sure he wouldn’t have gave a shit or even looked my way but when you live with social anxiety, everyone’s looking at you and everyone’s judging you so I gave into it. not my proudest moment lately. Damn!